apologize for tomorrow

because we know soon it will hurt

apologize now for then

apologize for tomorrow for when we thought about it today what you did yesterday 

apologize for hurt

hurt doesnt know you didnt want to hurt

all it knows is that it exists

apologize for it .

Tomorrows Hurt. 

peace of mind ,all is mind, mind is all

the alpha of understanding …or not understanding

the omega of nothing…but choice.. or not

the - - -captive mind .. peace

chains of knowledge-links of experience-yards of wisdom

P E A C E - S

of the mind 

it was never about your approval - since i could never escape your disapproval - i’ll never find logic in attempting to be acceptable for you. So i let go of it all- with hopes that youll find- that losing u has affected nothing at all. I will be who I am with or without u. You brought me in to leave me stranded-God brought me in never to be abandoned. Thanks for life-regardless of strife. Im okay. Im okay without you mom .

Captivated in fictional lust. Lost in the midst of - - - confusion. 

There is something about never knowing .

Much more to know than to feel lost.

Soul free.

Mind liberated.

Random.

Different.

Who understands

Does it matter

Live free -different shades of perfection in imperfection

Be gone- Be alive

Be free. Live free. Love free.

Pain - is all I know 

All im willing to give up for love. 

Be free. Free Soul. Mind. HEART - Fr e e me . 

L O V E 

if we knew then not to be last, but to make first mandatory.

Being second to none and first in all. . relationally. 

If we have choice -I chose to be last, first - but biblically.

I have no idea what makes people stick around for hurt when theres joy in front of them. Telling someone they deserve better is pointless, showing them what they deserve - worthless- that person must want better for his/her self. 

Self - your own: no one elses.

we always want what we cant have

sometimes we ask for it -receive it and then wish we never had.

sometimes we ask for it never receive it and find out we were better off without it.

we can never know whats best for us until what happens to us becomes best for us. 

If all these keys open the right door i lack three of them. I guess it takes more than to know you lack them. It takes walking in the right direction to achieve them. We all just want someone to love and for someone to love us back.. the right way. So with all of these facets of being a faithful Christian maybe I will receive what I pray for everyday. Sometimes becoming discouraged is all I know. We all want more than …to just be heard.